When we sit and use the mantra: “I am here. I am breathing,” it’s because there’s something so fundamental about returning to the roots of life and to not taking our life for granted, but rather appreciating it, feeling gratitude for it, feeling wonder about the fact that we exist at all.
The following meditation is intended to help bring into energetic and conceptual reality the supreme value of one’s own existence, beyond anything you do, think, or wish for. Your existence is your most precious gift. Recognizing this can lead to an alteration in the totality of one’s relationship to the rest of life.
During the meditation, when we use the mantra: “I am here. I am breathing. I Am,” or, “I am here. I am breathing. I am alive,” the purpose of this is to take us into a more fundamental awareness of who we are, and to feel the joy and freedom of not having to be an ‘anything,’ not having to be a ‘this’ or a ‘that.’ It is possible for us to feel pure existence without any labels attached to it. And if you were to feel that, you would feel something with it. It would not just be a sensation or an energy. It would be something like joy, or peace, or a sense of fullness. It would be your own ‘something,’ not a generic ‘something.’
When we sit and use the mantra: “I am here. I am breathing, I am alive,” it’s because there’s something fundamental about returning to the roots of life and to not taking our life for granted, but rather appreciating it, feeling gratitude for it, feeling wonder about the fact that we exist at all. Our existence is a wonderful fact, one that we don’t really register most of the time. We don’t think: “I exist. What a wonder that I exist at all.”
The joy of your own existence, not the ego of your own existence, but the gift of your own existence is yours. You are alive. You are alive. What a wonder.
In the simple: “I am here. I am breathing. I am alive,” is the intention to feel the wonder and joy of our own existence without any qualification, without having to do or be anything else that we think we have to do or be. When we experience this kind of freedom, it makes possible a sense of participation in life in a different way. It creates more space and less judgment of others because they are just here, too. They exist. They are breathing. They have the same Breath that we do.
Even though one could approach this goal in many different ways, the simplicity of dropping the personality structure to whatever extent is possible is what we’re endeavoring to do when we use the mantra: “I am here. I am breathing. I am,” or, “I am here. I am breathing. I am alive.” Treasure this experience, even if you don’t fully feel it. Know that your value, your preciousness, is about your existence. It’s not about anything else that is more important than that. Just that you exist is a wonder.
These are the background thoughts for this ‘Gift of Your Existence’ meditation, and they are for each day in which we use this mantra.
Now, let’s close our eyes and begin to breathe deeply.
“I am here. I am breathing. I am alive. I am pure existence.”
I would like you to imagine, now, as you think or speak the phrase: “I am alive,” that these words convey a radiance, a glow, a light. Picture this radiance in your body, in all parts of your body. Can you feel the life in your face? Your face is alive. Your ears are alive. Your neck and shoulders are alive. The life-force that comes with the breath is moving through you, creating life in every part of your body.
“I am here. I am breathing. I am alive.” Feel this in your arms and hands.
“I am here. I am breathing. I am alive. Every part of me is alive.”
“My eyes are alive. My face is alive. My mouth is alive. My neck and shoulders are alive. My fingers and arms are alive. My chest, and waist, and pelvis are alive. My genitals, and thighs, and legs, and hips, and feet are alive. My toes are alive. Every part of me is filled with life. I exist.”
It is possible when you use this mantra and bring more life into your body and become more appreciative of life, that you will feel in yourself those places in you that don’t feel alive. This is good for you to know, because you can bring life, intentionally, to those places in you. You can give life through your breath and through your intention to your own feelings of deadness. The feeling of deadness is not real, but it is acquired, sometimes. So, bring life to those parts of you that don’t feel alive, knowing this is possible. Your existence is permanent, which means that you will always be, and you will always have life moving through you in whatever form you inhabit.
When we say: “I am pure existence,” this is unqualified. It’s not dependent on the health of your body. It’s not dependent on your appearance. It’s not dependent on how well or not well your body functions. Your existence is what gives Divine life to your body, and beyond your body, you are That.
The joy of your own existence, not the ego of your own existence, but the gift of your own existence is yours for this day. You are alive. You are alive. What a wonder that you exist. And what a wonder it would be if you could feel that about those you meet today, or speak to, or think of. This existence is the precious gift of the Divine.
May all beings recognize this gift in themselves and in each other, that the world may become one with the Divine and one with all of its inhabitants.